A few weeks ago I had dinner with a friend of mind, and like woman do, we started chatting about marriages, relationships, kids and everything in between.
The conversation turned to insecurities. I told her how I remember myself at the tender age of 13/14, full of teenage angst, looking at woman my age (36) and thinking 'WOW, I bet when I'm that age, I will be confident and sure of myself!'. I thought those insecure feelings we have as teens just evaporate into a distant memory in the grown up world. Nothing is further from the truth!
Sure, what we are insecure about changes, but the actual feeling is still the same. Some fears lesson in intensity and some grow. Some are realistic and most are unrealistic. On the inside most of the time I am still that13/14 years old girl and full of angst. I know a lot of people would tell me: 'Azra, there is a cure for that, take a Happy Pill!' Well, it's not that I'm not Happy....
After about 10 minutes of me rambling on and on about what it is that I am insecure about (which I won't bore you with the details) I noticed my friend hadn't said a word. She just sat there and listened and enjoyed her dinner. I stopped, leaned in across the table and said: "Don't you get insecure about anything?" She lowered her fork and looked at me like I horns were growing out of my head that very moment and made a snarling face (very uncharacteristic for her) and said "NO!" Not just 'no' but a definite NO!
I was in shock! WHAT?!?!?!?!? How can you not be insecure about anything?? She replied with, Because I don't get insecure!
That's when I realized, maybe I'm NOT the crazy one after all....
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